hey. i bought my wedding dress today. though, i’m sure you already knew that. it’s perfect and i know that you would love it. though, i’m also pretty sure that you placed it in that boutique for me to find. i still miss you a lot. especially on days like today when i think about how you’re not going to be there. i mean, i know you’re going to be there because you’re with me everywhere i go, but you’re not going to be there in person. i always believed what people said, you know, about it getting easier as time goes on. but you’ve been gone almost a year and i think it’s just as hard now as it was when i got that call that morning. you’d be so proud of me and the person i’m becoming. and you would just LOVE josh, i know you would. some of the things he says reminds me of you. he loves hearing stories of you and i know that when we have kids, they will, too. you were (and still are) my best friend i know you’re up there, watching over me, cheering me on through life and i can’t thank you enough for that. even on nights like tonight, when all i can think about is how you’re not going to be there for my wedding, my graduation, the birth of my kids — when all i want to do is lay in the dark, talk to you, and cry — i know you’ll always be there. and i can’t thank you enough for that. i know you’re having fun up there with jesus, your family, grandma and grandpa, but don’t forget about us down here, okay? because i know i’ll never forget about you. i love you.